Heartbreak Quotes


sighs. i regret quite a few things in life. one of them was entering something so serious. playing a fool and getting my heart broken and smashed into pieces by you. it has been 4 months since it happened. and i don't know why. but i feel hurt whenever you look at me. is that because i've been dwelling on it for too long? and that i let go too soon. i hate pretending that i'm not hurt when i really do hurt a lot inside. At times i just want to lock myself up and cry for the whole day. but that is never possible. when can i ever have a day where i can cry myself out. i have to be happy for people. they are counting on me for that. if i were to cut myself. they would be very mad at me. and why? thats because he told me to never try it ever again. but if i try it, i might be able to get rid of some of this misery deep inside of me. i can't believe that now that i want to start out anew, problems are ambushing me. they're all coming back to me. i thought i got rid of them a long long time ago. why are the coming back to me if i already got rid of them? maybe thats because i got hurt while fixing them and gave up halfway. so what if i did? at least i didn't hurt myself so much right? by trying to fix a shattered heart, you will just hurt yourself more. so what's best is that we just leave it alone and wait for the next guy to go into your life and help you patch it up slowly but surely. i guess that day will never come for me. i way too much for everyone. i bet they find me irritating. i bet they think i'm a bitch. but so what? at least i'm being myself. not like some two faced people. that change their attitudes when they want something from you and change when they find you annoying and a nuisance. that's all crap. gosh. all these happened so long ago. why are they all coming back to me at this time. when i feel like the whole world hates me and finds me irritating. oh lord. save me from this mess. teach and guide me how i can help to fix this mess that i supposedly started. my heart says forgive him for what he has done. but my brain says no, he deserves it. i don't know what i should follow right now. seriously. well. i better not hurt those around me with the way i'm feeling now. I'm sick and tired of it.
ending off here. byebyes